Are You Searching?
This post isn't going to be long and isn't going to be anything fancy, but it is going to be truth.
The truth is, for the longest time, I was searching. The funny thing is that I didn't always know that I was searching for something. I wasn't facing my feelings, my fears, my insecurities. I was just brushing them off and moving on. The problem with this is that moving on doesn't always mean moving forward. Take, for example, the junk drawer that everyone has at home. When you want to quickly tidy up you put things in it that you're too busy to properly organize. Ultimately it just started out as a drawer to store a few things and it quickly turned into this overflowing mess. The same things happen with ourselves. We quickly store thoughts that scare us away in our own mental junk drawer and try to forget about them until one day the drawer is too full to close. Now what the heck are we supposed to do? We have all of these things flying around in our heads and the overwhelm hits us like a ton of bricks.
I could go on and on about how keeping these feelings inside affects our bodies on a physical level. But that's for another day. What I want to talk about is how we don't always have to go through these things alone. Personally, I'm an introvert at heart. If given the choice, I would much rather stay home in my sweatpants watching Grey's Anatomy for the third time on Netflix than getting dressed and going out to the grocery store. And, to be completely honest, I did this for a while. I stayed in my own little hermit shell. I lost a lot of friends and I was bored, confused, and not truly happy with the direction my life was going. I needed something or someone. I was in search of the fire within me that had gone out.
Not too soon after I had reached a low point I was presented an opportunity to join forces with the most amazing women to do the most amazing thing...change the world. Now this may sound crazy to you, but give me a chance to explain. I was introduced to such a supportive, encouraging, and positive community of leaders who knew that there had to be more than just wishing and hoping for change. They were taking control of their lives, their families lives, and their futures. Every single one with a different goal and drive for why they were doing this. Where else in the world do we see so many women building each other up and support each other in such and impactful way? Consider my fire lit my friends.
Now if you were like me, that girl searching for passion and fire, then I know you are meant to be reading this. We all get lost. We all have doubts. We all have fears. But it is what we choose to do next that defines the rest of our lives. I have tears in my eyes as I write this because I know what it feels like to be low and boy do I know what it feels like to be so damn high. So what is next for you? Is your fire lit?
Want to stop searching and learn more about this f***ing awesome community? Reach out to me, because your future self will definitely thank you.
To your happiness and health,